I think I'm at the stage now where I want to pull together my thoughts on the pandemic and what it meant to me. I think I have enough distance now for it not to be too Rose tinted but I have enough perspective.
We went into 2020 knowing nothing, I'd heard some snippets but everyone seemed to think it would be like other outbreaks and not really touch us.
We had a 2 week trip to Japan booked for late February, I will never forget a colleague passing my door 2 days before we left, she told me to have a nice time, I said well yes if we get to go! She thought I was talking about work and laughed at me when I said we were worried about this coronavirus.
So we got to Japan and the trip was wonderful. We did see people wearing masks but that's natural in Japan.
We thought nothing of it till we got back late February, Mark developed a cold during trip home, we bought him a mask felt all very weird and strange, the clouds were looming on our return we phoned up NHS 24 and were advised to get Mark tested that was on the 27th February. He had to go to a hotel car park in Larbert someone in a bio hazard suit came out and he went in. He was horrified when they stuck a swab up his nose !!! Seems funny now we were nose swabbing for years but this was our first encounter.
We both had to isolate, this was all so new and scary but surreal too. I went back to work on the 2nd March I remember having to phone up and get guidance and being told that I didnt have to worry it was only my husband who needed to isolate, we werent even in separate rooms!!! This all seems utterly crazy now looking back but there was no guidance.
In my year for the day diary on 3rd March 2020 I wrote - Covid 19 - its shite .... how little did I know ...
6th March we had our first CV 19 meeting, this was in person we were talking strategies for how we would cope in the event of any shutdown, i remember it so well. 9th March I wrote in my diary - TEAMS all day!!!! good grief how little did I know, we were upskilling one of our international campuses who had already gone into lockdown.
1st March - Sheena starts coffee on quilts hash tag, it became a regular part of the start of the pandemic for me
13th March, I noted how it ramps up every day but i got my medication thanks to the pharmacy, good grief pharmacists, another set of pandemic heroes.
14th March we had a sewing day for the Glasgow guild, I remember us all being wary we had no idea what to do! I think one of the members burst into tears, Dawn had made us lentil soup, much needed.
15th March - What a difference a year makes all feeling very apocalyptic, how little did I know ...
Up to the 19th March I just note its brutal, one of the other sections of the University was behaving very badly, yes we were all scared but there was no call to behave like that.
20th March, library closed, I remember that like it was yesterday, there was me Iain and Clare, we waited and waited and waited for our boss to call us to give us the signal, we threw everything out which was perishable, took loads of loo roll home! lord the panic buying of loo roll .... I bought rice and pasta from student shop, I remember putting back some gluten free stuff it was in such short supply every one was stocking up, hoarding! I didn't want to deprive a coeliac of their pasta. goodness ....
Mark and I set up our WFH offices, little did we think that we would be using them for 3 years and now Mark permanently! all very strange. We got tables out of the garage I got the room we had been using as an office, Mark preferred using a corner of the dining room, we both thanked our lucky stars we had a nice room each plus we had just got fibre optic BB installed I dont think we could have coped without it.
We went to the shops once or twice, I remember being terrified, Mark went at least twice and we would strip him down and wash everything before using it. It was all about the droplets then, I dont think we even wore masks ....
I thought I should also go just to do my bit, good grief it was dreadful, I went to Aldi first, the guard slopped so much hand sanitiser on me, I went in but it was like the wild west, folks just behaving as normal depsite all the notices, I panicked abandoned my trolley and scarpered. I then went to Tesco, stood in a queue for ages and then when I got to the front the attendant wanted me to give him a pound or a token for the trolley, I realised it was still in my abandonded trolley in Aldi .... I started to wobble, a really nice chap behind me leaned over my shoulder to give me a pound but I panicked at someone being so close and ran away! I am so sorry he was trying to be nice but .... I remember sitting in the car and screaming and screaming and crying.
But I am not a quitter, I remembered that Asda didnt use trolley tokens at that time so went to my third shop and diligently stood in the queue and eventually got round, I was totally bricking it.
When I got home I really didnt want to do any of that again so re activated my hello fresh account, that way at least we got some home delivered meals. I think we also got onto the priority slot for deliveries when I was told I had to shield, still getting deliveries from Asda to this day!
I went round Aldi yesterday 09/02/2023 for the first time since abandoning my trolley, it was quite a thing to do and feel.
21st March - first Killearn zoom meeting, how little did we realise that this would be the norm for quite so long.
25th March - So much awful behaviour at work, I had to call in my boss to help me out, not something I normally do, but people were espousing "care and compassion" but being very selective about who that was shown too.
28th march - My diary notes - "hit a wall, didnt notice Mark coming in with coffee" I remember that so well now, it scared both of us.
1st April - I note that it is all beginning to hit home about CV 19 now.
3rd April - Stressing about Furlough, blimey that was all a bit brutal wasnt it, our staff didnt get any reduction in pay though, the University topped up the govt scheme. Nevertheless many staff felt very vulnerable about this.
4th April - supporting small businesses, they were so badly hit, I tried to buy from a wide variety of shops who were selling online, so hard for them
13th April - Poor Mark, I was ok with my hobbies as they were all indoor, he missed his outdoor activities, so he set up his tent in the back garden!
We really loved our garden, still do!
14th April - Start the recording of Crafting during the Coronavirus craft diaries for Naomi Alice on instagram
16th April - Started regular zooms with chums, well we didnt know they were going to be regular then ....
25th April - Start of my first blossom watch, walking down to the village to see the blossom on the trees
30th April 2020
First notification of shielding .... I seem to remember I was late in getting this letter, I had expected it but when I didnt get it i thought i was OK, but then i wasnt.
I remember a nice chap phoned me up and talked me through implications etc, One of the main things I remember was him talking about my cancer, the original strain of CV was linked to blood and there was an implication that if I caught it it might set off my lymphoma again, that to be honest was the most terrifying thing. I remember being grateful that we were so well set up at home.
This was the start of regular zooms with chums, I set up 2 regular zooms, a thursday night one with crafty chums and a friday night one with my bff who also works in HE, it was a friday night OMG we got to the end of the week gin n T zoom, much needed .....
1st May, we all tried to keep ourselves boyed up, I organised a 40th birthday party for a work colleague, all on zoom of course!
wore my Angry birds hat!!
6th May
We started re watching lots of comfort TV, The Good life was one of the first we re watched, great comfort.
7th May 2020
21st May
Finding safe places to walk? Graveyards!
3rd June
Letter telling me I still had to shield until 18th June, most people were allowed out for 1 hour of exercise a day, we werent .... I have never been so grateful for my garden, I knew every step around it, 47 steps around the perimeter in total.
I busied myself making lots of quilts
5th June
I threatened to hand in my notice, this was really the start of retirement plans, work was so bad I started to look at my options and realised that actually I could go, very illuminating.
6th June
phoned samaritans in the middle of the night .... I was really at a low ebb, I would never have harmed myself I just needed someone to talk too.
8th June
Ahhh lovely another letter saying I had to stay home and shield now until the end of July, again grateful for garden etc but OMG this was hard, I did sometimes get up really early in the morning and go out around the country lanes, wracked with guilt for not doing what I was told .... sheesh you can imagine my feelings when the downing st parties news came out.
16th June - I did hand in my notice, I remember it so well, Scoobs stood over me and almost made me hit the send button.
My boss at the time called me on teams and told me to take 2 days off and reflect but that if i still said i was handing in my notice she would be obliged to accept.
My boss at the time persuaded me to stay, She did it from the best motives and I am glad she did, she said this was not the way I should leave and she was right, I eventually got to leave exactly on my own terms which i am grateful for.
20th June
Its so lovely outside! Scoobs honed his BBQ skills
25th June - huge bust up with member of staff this was really the beginning of the end for that scenario, a shame but looking back now it was inevitable. People do not change not significantly.
26th June Quaffle! Chum Sheena wanted to do an online raffle for her charity and needed someone she knew to test the whole thing out, so we raffled off my Farmers wife quilt! It was great fun, raised loads of money and best of all someone I knew won it and she had been on her own during lockdown so this fair cheered her up!
3rd July - start of HE top trumps with best chum, whose Uni is the most bonkers ...
9th July
Easing of shielding, PHEW! letter saying from 10th July I can do more, go outdoors for a start! travel further than 5 miles, thank you! Also the start of the shee wee chat with R&S! I could now go up to mams but didnt want to have to go to a public loo on the way! we found an alternative!!!!!
11th July - first visit to mams
13th July - ahhhhh looking at my thought for a day diary i see the beginnings of when things really started to fall apart at work ..... D and J and K
18th July 2020 - Oh wow , this is when we bought the chair for the living room! this was the first shop we went into, you had to book an appointment etc you were the only one in the shop etc, actually quite nice! I was really stuggling having to be at home so much and not moving as much as I was used too, so we needed a new living room chair.
19th July - this was my first time sitting in chums Garden, David and Cass, that was so good to see them and sit in the garden and chat
20th and 21st July - 12 hour days .... I note in my diary - bonkers just bonkers
24th July
You can stop shielding!
25th July - I wrote in my diary about wearing a face mask? surely we wore them before this?
1st August - I think this was the 1st time I went to Kaleidoscope with Kim? also had tea and cake at woodhouse?
4th August - Sue Boo and David! very first real life visitors, it was all so strange, as if we had forgotten what to do
16th August - virtual sewing day with Ruth chill in garden
19th August - shoulder goes again
27th August - Start off reorganization at work, this was just brutal, 7 divisions into 4, having to speak to all teams, awful time
29th August 2020
Massage in Edinburgh, meet up with Jacky, lovely long walk, coffee and quick hug
1st September
- in thought for the day diary, I noted I got through the script .... we were given a script by HR to go through regarding the restructure, It was brutal going through it with every team, awful.
2nd Sept
I note - F**k work my friday night chum from HE was also broken
12th September
Picnic Kim
14th September
OK more outbreaks so download the app to let you know if you have been in close contact.
20th September
this photo makes me hoot with laughter! and the start of a long running in joke with my chum about mushrooms. I posted this on instagram and she thought I had planted it because she didnt realise these mushrooms were real! so so funny
24th september
Oh dear, note in my diary about team member the middle of the beginning of the end, would this have happened without the pandemic? we will never know ...
26th September
Tea and scones with Kim are the only thing keeping me sane I note
28th September
Hit a wall and cried in a meeting, I think I made an excuse that I had some bad news, I hadnt I had just had enough ....
29th September
Japanese Gardens with Mark, oh my I remember this so well, it was beautiful, we had sandwiches outside, it felt like being on holiday it was so novel.
4th October
Virtual sewing day with chum Ruth, very lovely
10th October
Tea and fabric shopping with Kim and Jo
18th October
The donkeys became a huge part of my pandemic, I would see them often, I think this was the first time I met them
19th October
Doune Castle, met up with dear dear chums here, then went to the smiddy for coffee and bacon rolls, such a momentous and special day
23rd October
Letter laying out new tier system ... Actually it was a good idea but blimey so contentious and you had to stay on top of all the changes.
29th October
Drive up to Taynuilt, first time away from home! got to see chum Sally, my wonderful Scoobs re created a lot of the wonderful breakfasts we have had on holiday, I love him so much.
We had a cuppa in the garage with Sally and her husband, so amazing.
9th November
First time seeing these chaps in their starry jaikets!
I am not good
20th December
Balancing the risks of daily activity booklet, OK again a good idea but goodness so much to consider also quite overwhelming.
19th December
Drove up to mams for xmas, I was (supposedly ...) the only one who could visit her as I was shielding too. I learned to drive up for 4 hours without a loo stop, pretty proud of that!
I remember Nicola Sturgeon on the news looking genuinely terrified about surge in case numbers never been so terrified in my life.
Now I realise that this was when Boris Johnson was partying in no 10, there are no words to express the rage.
January 2021
Letter from govt - roll out of the vaccine, never been so happy to receive a letter from govt ....
4th January
Additional protective lock down measures. Everywhere which was in level 4 will have more lockdown measures. Strong advice is stay home where ever possible. I remember this as a time of hope - vaccines and also fear.
6th February
FIRST VACCINATION
I cannot say what an amazing time this was, this was the first sign of hope for almost a year.
15th March
Car park picnic Jo and Kim this is the car park which kept us going
25th April
Kaledoscope - Kim
18th May
Up to the Lookout in Taynauilt! our first meal out for over a year!!!!!!
25th May
Picnic Jo and Kim
27th May
first cataract op, this was incredible, I had decided to go private as the NHS waiting list was about a year ( very understandable in the circumstances. I simply cannot say how amazing this was, almost perfect sight! Glasses only for reading!
12th June
Jo and Kim - Kaleidoscope
19th June
Sue David and Boo
Also the start of my pink prosecco countdown, I originally wanted to retire in May 2022 so I bought 12 bottles of pink Prosecco and had one a month until I retired.
3rd July
Kim and Jo
15th July
Letter saying about move to level 0, cases high but hospitalisations low, reducing indoor distancing from 2 meters to 1. OMG all the risk assessments etc around this, all had to ben changed and updated.
17th July
Ruth and Sheena - giving chums presents i had brought them back from Japan, we hadnt met in person since January 2020 .... we went for a walk and an outdoor meal, it felt like paradise.
18th July
Jacky Doug and Donald, oh my word, the first BBQ, very beloved chums round, they were allowed to go inside but only for the loo! we had cordonned off a downstairs loo for them!!! It was blissful utterly utterly blissful, friends, people fun and laughter.
30th July
Virtual FOQ, what fun!!!!! great time
31st July
Kim and Jo
3rd August
oh bless Scoobs, he was always willing to sit out in the rain with me when I didnt want to sit inside.
6th August
Letter from govt, moving beyond level 0 and keeping some precautionary measures
29th August
Elaine group, the lovely Green and Scratchy from IG brought together a group sewing day up by Perth, again a lovely piece of normality, blissful
12 September
Janice gin palace
29th September
3rd dose, first booster appointment
16th October
First time back at Glasgow Modern quilt guild since March 2020
13th November
Tyndrum Ruth and Sheena, Emmaline retreat bag making Scampi and Chips, Ruth re creates Gartmore! also Coronation chicken sandwiches
27th November
Woodhouse and Kaleidoscope meet
5th December
Wreath at the smiddy with Jo and Kim
11th December
First U3 since pandemic at Blonde, just incredible
15th December - Omicron, everything cancelled
18th December
Kaleidoscope
27th December
Scoobs home but we need to isolate - hideous but we sat in the garden for hogmanay
24th December
Smiddy Kim
29th December
First letter telling me I am eligible for anti virals
2022
6th January
Told Fraser Im retiring this now gets real
11th January 2022
Another booster dose, I got grilled when I went along, did I really need one, hell yes i do, wasnt going to leave till i got it.
25th January 2022
letter about returning to normal .... boosters to protect against omicron, use same advice as everyone else, but you have just spent 2 years telling me I am not like everyone else! gonnae make up your mind!!!
12th February
Coffee indoors at the woodhouse, an important step
4th March 2022
changes to the way we manage and updates for those on the list, basically to me it said " everything else is returning to normal you are on your own ...." my very biased interpretation but I wasnt the only one.
No longer have to wear masks .... well Im still wearing mine thank you very much.
5th March 2022
U3! Blonde!
14th March
Back selling raffles at the rural
26th March
Feeling more and more comfortable getting out, seeing folks again is amazing
11th April
just another reminder about antil virals, thanks but I dont need a reminder I have the number on speed dial!
9th May
Letter stating that the highest risk list will end on the 31st May and quote "I know how difficult shielding was and I do not plan to ask you to shield again, we are in a very different position to where we were in March 2020 and have better ways of managing the virus now"
27th June 2023
So here I am returned after a fantastic holiday in Skye and Orkney. I thought now is the time to finish this page. I am out and about a lot, travelling, doing things I had never believed possible at many stages of the pandemic. I will never believe we will be fully out of the pandemic and are we living normally? We are living as normally as we can but only time will tell, so many people brutalised and sick due to the measures taken, most of which were necessary but only because the Government mucked everything up. Sitting listening to the Covid enquiry (trying not to yell too loudly at Matt Hancock) hearing that the main thing was they didnt stop the disease getting into the UK, well DUH!!!! and we are an island 😱 how simple would it have been to close our borders???? test people coming in????
And Johnson .... lets not go there, I cant think of the man without having a hissy fit.
So lets look at the faces of the two who were instrumental in getting me through this whole shit storm
And this man, you dont need my words to say how much i love him
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