Sunday, 27 August 2017
Monday, 21 August 2017
Friday, 18 August 2017
Wednesday, 16 August 2017
Two talks on the friday, interesting and Jenny Rayment stripped off in hers .... highlight of the day was an instagram impromptu meet up with the lovely Mary, Di, Trudi and Hazel. Lots of catching up, lots of hugs then off to look at Trudis quilt.
Tuesday, 15 August 2017
I have Rheumatoid arthritis, there I said it out loud. To be honest I've known for a while, so much pain, killing pain, but the confirmation just floored me. It also made me re think a whole load of 'stuff' I have a hugely demanding job, yet again I am a team member short for the start of term so I am covering that and implementing a huge project with tough KPIs .... So things have to give. I gave up the blogging for the Edinburgh Modern quilt guild, I loved doing that but it meant I couldn't blog here so much and I realised this is where I create my memories my happy things to look back on. And I need that now more than ever. I have given up the muckhart quilt group, lovely ladies but the travel and organisation was too much. I signed up for a whole load of retreats this year, which is good, I hope I can still carry that on next year but who knows, I'll make the most of it while I can.
So for now I am being more selfish, it's out with anything or anyone who sucks joy or happiness from me. I just don't have the head space for it. I have deleted Facebook, Twitter I need for work and Instagram is my happy place, that can stay.
I know this can be controlled but I also know I face a rough three to six months while they figure out which drugs do and don't work. I'm struggling so hard to come to terms with this. I do hope I look back on this post at about Christmas and smile and think I got through it, but change is inevitable and this is a biggie, even if the drugs work etc etc I know I can't do what I used to at the pace I used to so I'm just letting that settle in just now.
Right that's the last self pitying post!! I just needed to get that down and out of my head.